Writing and Cooking

30 July 2009, 12:01

I find myself often wanting to write about cooking, specifically the sometimes crazy, sometimes pedestrian concoctions I make. I think in many ways that is because when I stop my writing it is often to cook, and I find that my mind tends to blend my enthusiasms in such a way that if I’m excited about what I’m writing, and then go start cooking something I enjoy, I suddenly get excited about writing about my cooking. I refrain because, well, I’m really not that spectacular a chef, and there’s no need for yet another blog out there about “what I had for lunch.”

(For the record, because I know someone will ask, today it was edemame with sea salt while I waited for whole grain short pasta. I put a sort of ketchupy sauce on the pasta that I made last night for my meatballs and cabbage, which I had expanded from the homemade ketchup I made the night before for our burgers. It was mostly tomato paste and Worcestershire sauce, with some sweeteners, cider vinegar, and water, boiled down a little. I added fresh thyme and oregano, and goat cheese. Yum!)

But today I found myself thinking that it might also have something to do with those processes of Boice’s that I already do, particularly the “prewriting” stuff. In his book it’s clear that he’s found a lot of resistance to these methods which include things like outlining before you really know what you want to say exactly, or “mindful freewriting” in which you focus on some aspect of what you want to say and ruminate on it in on paper (or screen). Another one, which people have a lot of difficulty with he says, is pausing frequently to reflect in non-verbal ways. For me these are all fundamental parts of writing and I would have difficulty getting anywhere without them (although he is certainly giving me ideas on how to improve them and make them into more regular activities).

The resistance that people have to these processes, he suggests, is in trusting that doing what feels like non-productive work will actually lead to product. And this is where I realized that cooking and writing has, perhaps, a more fundamental connection for me than simple proximity.

When I was a child, my mother felt like I needed an outlet, a place where I could be free to pursue ideas and express myself without much input from adults. And due to various contextual constraints, she decided that that place would be the kitchen. She gave me free reign. At 7 I baked a cake (from a Disney cookbook, and with some help from her). At 8 I told her that I wanted to make cookies, but I didn’t need a recipe. She shrugged her shoulders and let me be. The bizarre, yellow, rubbery, not-very-sweet raison cookies went in the cooky jar and we ate them happily, not because she made me live with my mistakes but because we all agreed that despite not having much resemblance to “cookies,” we enjoyed them anyway.

Thus began a lifetime of creative experiments in the kitchen. I’ve developed a knack for soup (and I have a gift for pastry) although I have never quite mastered cookies (gingerbread being the exception).

So what does all this have to do with writing, anyway? Well, today mixing my odd little sauce into my pasta, I realized that what my mother taught me by assisting and allowing my kitchen explorations was that there are great rewards in taking creative risks; that when something doesn’t turn out how you expected, it isn’t always bad, and when it is bad, it’s not an ego-shattering disaster, its just a slightly annoying learning experience. And so I am fully prepared to make that leap of faith that says that seemingly non-productive work will result in a workable product. And I look forward to the process.

Thanks, Mom.

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17 June 2009, 06:32

I am home safely. The trip was long, as always, but the 6 hour stay in a nice private room with a bed for my stopover made the whole thing considerably more human than the times I’ve done it in the past. Today I’m tired, but not too tired, and happy to be home.

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Holy Crap! I'm in the tropics!

9 June 2009, 13:01

So, even though my fieldwork is effectively over, and I’ve lived here for a year and a half, I’m still experiencing new things.

Today it was a very long (2.5-3 feet) black snake rearing up like a cobra on my driveway when I got home. It was possibly a cobra (according to people here). Yikes!

I’ve let people at the house know and steps are being taken. I’m sure I’ll be fine. Just a few short days now.

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I have been remiss.

12 March 2009, 04:37

I haven’t been blogging as much as I wanted to, which I’m sure you noticed. So now that I am taking a few days in France, I want to really spend some time writing, and hopefully a nice long post or two will be part of it. The good news is that this time it’s getting lots of research and writing done that’s keeping me from blogging, not illness or lack of action (the throwing up was a fluke. Otherwise I’ve been the picture of health).

For the record, I’ve arrived safe (if tired and irritated) in France, and after a morning of internet, I’m going to venture into town and see what can be seen.

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On being a visible minority

29 January 2009, 11:01

I’ve really got a taste of what it is to be a minority this past year, and truth be told, it’s not that fun. Oh, don’t get me wrong, I’m not an oppressed minority by any stretch, but the thing is, a fair amount of experience comes from the visible part. I mean, I suppose I belong to a minority of “immigrants” and “Americans” in Canada, but the truth is that being white, and having been raised in Canada since infancy, that minority status is completely invisible and virtually never affects me. And I suppose that “women” are categorized as visible minorities when it comes to jobs, but in no way does being a woman in Canada compare to being white in Ghana.

When I say this it will be obvious, but I think that it’s something us non-minorities don’t tend to give much thought to: when you are a minority, you experience the aggregate of people’s reactions to you. And when even 1% of the population is aggressive or rude, that can mean many instances every single day. And as an individual, experiencing this, your tolerance for aggression and rudeness goes way down, then down some more, then way, way, way down some more, until you are ready to scream at anyone who singles you out for any reason.

So, to be less abstract: very very few Ghanaians are aggressive to me. I’ve been grabbed (by the arm or hand) a few times in the city, and there are people who will raise their voices and demand explanations if I don’t please them (like the complete stranger who started yelling at me and demanding to know why I wouldn’t marry him, didn’t I think he was good enough), but these people are very few and far between. However, after a year and a bit here, those experiences start to aggregate, and lesser things start to bother me. Whereas I started out not much caring if people called out “White man! white MAN!!” to get my attention, now I find it intensely irritating. When a man sat down in a shared taxi next to me the other day and asked me to pay for him, I got very irritated, and wasn’t able to keep that out of my voice. The conversation went something like:

“Please, pay for me”
“No.”
“Yes, you can pay for me, please. I want to be your friend.”
“I have lots of friends. I can’t pay for them all.”
“Oh, no, you don’t have to pay for them all, just for me.”
(My voice starting to rise) “If you think it’s okay to ask a perfect stranger for money how many people a day do you think ask me that, huh? Why don’t you ask her for money.” (Indicate other lady in taxi)
“oh, no, she is… she can’t. You…”
“I can’t give everybody who asks money”
“I’m not asking for money, just for you to pay. I want to be your friend.”
“You just want to be my friend for money.”
“Oh! no! Where are you from?” (And it goes on with the more usual script: what is your name, where do you stay, are you married, etc.).

There were two other women in the taxi watching, and I got the impression that they did not have much sympathy for the man. What he did is pretty rude by Ghanaian standards. Friends often pay for each other, and sometimes strangers who strike up a conversation will pay for each other, but demanding some gift as the beginning of friendship is not done here. And yet I get this all the time. And that’s the thing about being a minority. There are things that people would never do with their fellow members of the majority, but that they will do to and with minorities.

So why am I recounting all this? Well, I think that there is a tendency when you are a member of the majority who is confronted with an angry, insulted member of a minority to feel like you are being unjustly blamed. And there is a tendency when you are a minority to have difficulty separating the people who are jerks from the people who are curious, from the many more people who are indifferent. But the other thing that its important to remember when you are a majority is that while you can choose not to harass and insult and otherwise harm minorities, they can’t choose to not be harassed, insulted, and otherwise harmed. And I know from talking to other white people here, and from how I’ve found myself feeling, that the relentlessness of that fact, combined with the aggregated experiences of it can lead to an anger that can be hard to put aside. So, I guess what I’ve been thinking lately, is that I shouldn’t try so hard in Canada to emulate the indifferent masses, as I have in the past as to emulate the people here who have welcomed me and given me counter experiences to draw on and remember when confronted with irritations large and small. People who take time not just to give me directions, but show me the way, who smile, who ask if my needs are met, people who show a polite and not too pushy interest in where I’m from and what I’m doing here.

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